When You Don't Understand
I struggle often with tragedies that occur, trying to make sense of them, but I often can’t. I’ve finally realized that there are some things that this side of Heaven we will never understand.
There have been suicides, assaults, senseless deaths, so many accidents and occurrences that none of us have understood or have explanations for, but they happen everyday. There is mystery that we just can’t comprehend that leaves us stunned with no answers…when we don’t understand.
I wrote the poem "When You Don't Understand" with these thoughts in mind, and I pray it will be a comfort and encouragement to those who mourn.
When You Don't Understand
When life makes no sense, and you don't understand the reason why
Your life unravels before your very eyes
You look to find an answer somewhere
You look to find something, someone to help and care
Your heart is crushed, torn, and broken
So many words have been left unspoken
The tears roll out from a hidden, deep place
The hurt and heartbreak show all over your face
Life seems unbearable with shame and disgrace
You look to find shelter, but there is no place
The hurt is too much to try to carry on
Your heartstrings are cut, losing their song
Is it possible to still make your way?
Can you go on breathing for another day?
You think your heart will stop, will miss its next beat
The dark specter lurks near, waiting to leap
Cold, still sleep seems to be the only answer
Fear and sadness have become your cancer
You question if you are going insane
You don't know how to play this heart game
There is nowhere left to go
Never have you felt so very, very low
You don't understand the reason or cause for such hurt
You wish there was someone to help and alert
The sadness looms and does not go away
Speaking is useless, there’s nothing left to say
When the cruel words are like a viper's sting
The pain still echoes with a continuous ring
You feel like a broken and wounded bird
You only want your hurt and sorrow to be acknowledged and heard
Who is there to turn to, but only God
But only stillness and silence, there is no nod
Sometimes no response can give you grace
Unanswered prayers may be the case
You scream and cry out with all your might
Please, dear God, help make things right
You won't give in, give up the fight
Your faith in Him will never lose its sight
In unexplained mystery you must rest
God's help and His strength are still your quest
He will be found because you seek
Blessed are the suffering, not just the meek
You will continue your trust and your belief
Even if Heaven will be your only relief
Your faith in God alone, you will always keep
What is sown on earth, in Heaven you will reap
-Dr. Rhonda Milner
"Therefore we do not lose heart....For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us eternal glory that far outweighs them all."
2 Corinthians 4:16a-17
"I have fought the good fight. I have finished the race, I have kept the faith. Now there is in store for me the crown of righteousness which the Lord, the righteous judge, will award to me."
2 Tim 4: 7-8a